The Swedish Girls

I awoke around midnight the other night.  No particular reason, I just woke up.  Not wanting to just lay there wondering why I couldn’t sleep, I turned on the TV and found Letterman.  He was just introducing the group, “First Aid Kit.”  I don’t know why but their song, “Emmylou” grabbed me right away.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vwnu5PfGWzY

After they played I turned off the TV but their song stayed with me – and it has been with me ever since.  I don’t know why, but their music just speaks to my soul.  And frequently these days, ‘The Swedish Girls’ will walk through my mind with their song, “Emmylou.”  They visited me here this morning, just 10 minutes ago…

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Our Town

I don’t know if I can ever fully appreciate how Johannes Holliger must have felt that early spring day in April 1833, as he readied himself to leave his home in Rein, Switzerland.  Johannes was 30 years old, and I suspect, jobless.  His father had died when he was four, leaving him, his mother and his younger brother virtually in poverty.  At any rate, Johannes ‘walked away from it all’ to come to America, to the “Promise Land,” in search of a new life.  In his heart, he probably knew he would never see his family again….

More than likely, he traveled north up the Aare and Rhine Rivers to Amsterdam before securing passage to America.  Our family history reflects that he entered the United States in Washington DC in 1833.  From the east coast he made his way to Northwest Ohio.  At that time the Black Swamp was being drained and there was land available for homesteading.  On his discharge from military service in 1828, Johannes listed his occupation as “Landmann.”  I think he was more of a farm laborer than a farmer;  but I also believe it was in his soul to be a farmer.

He married Eve Cripliver in 1834 and they subsequently settled on a property just east of Whitehouse, Ohio, on Cemetery Road.  I imagine they had to clear the land of trees, brush and critters before they could build a home or farm the property.  At any rate, 10 children were born to Eve and Johannes on the family homestead between 1838 and 1856.  Johannes passed away in 1881, a very wealthy man I reckon.  Not particularly wealthy in the material sense, but certainly in the spiritual sense.  From modest beginnings, Johannes was truly blessed.

John Holliker (my great grandfather) was born on the family homestead in 1846.  He was the fifth child of Eve and Johannes Holliger.  In 1882, John’s siblings deeded the Holliger Homestead to him for the sum of $ 1.00.  John was 36 at the time.  He then married Lydia A. Richter in 1884.  (Bear with me a minute here; although there is no sex or violence in it, this story is going somewhere!)  John farmed and worked his property until his ‘premature’ death at 90 in 1936 – he was knocked over by a train on his way home from church one evening.

John, like his father Johannes, loved that property, and he too, loved being a farmer.  As Johannes grew older, John became ‘the Man;’ farming and caring for his parents.  That explains why his brothers and sisters signed over the property for just a dollar, and why perhaps, he married later in life.

In 1890, Lydia became sick and John moved his family into town, into Whitehouse.  However, he continued to work the farm.  At sunrise he would walk out on the tracks of the Wabash Railroad to the family homestead, work all day, and then head back into town in the evenings.  I was told he worked this way well into his eighties.  As his hearing failed, the train engineers would often have to stop the train, and get John off the tracks before proceeding on.

I have had an intense interest in my family heritage for quite some time.  From my teenage years, I have collected various bits and pieces of our family memorabilia.  Over the past 10 years or so, I have been exploring our family history.  Last week I met with a Whitehouse historian and began quizzing him about the Holliger Homestead.  I wanted to know where the original house stood.  He brought out an old county map of Waterville Township from 1875, and showed me exactly where the house stood.  He said it wasn’t much of a house and it sat on an elevated portion of the property.

Last Saturday night I decided to walk out to the old homestead from Whitehouse, retracing John’s path out the old Wabash Railroad.  It was a clear, warm evening with a light trace of wind.  It took about 25 minutes, as I was not in any particular hurry.  As I walked along, I wondered what John might have looked at, what he might have thought about as he made his many trips out and back on that railway.  The portion of the property I wanted to see is now a llama farm.  As I walked up the driveway, toward the barn, a woman tending the animals met me.  I sensed she viewed me with suspicion and I knew she was not ‘of Whitehouse.’  After I explained the purpose of my visit she was very cordial.  She pointed to an elevated place, just south of the existing barn, where the old house stood.  The site is surrounded by trees, and the old well is still there.  I was elated!  After all those years of research, I was going to be able to stand where my ancestors once lived!  I could almost ‘sense’ the house; I could almost hear an old creaking windmill, and I felt warmth from unknown, yet familiar spirits.  I felt ‘home,’ really home – for the first time in my life!

Then, in the next breath, the woman told me, “You know, the property has been sold.  It is being developed for 38 new spacious, country home sites.”  At that moment, I felt as if my soul had been cored!  I don’t know if she saw it in me or not, but I wanted to walk up to where that house sat, and I wanted ‘to go away from it all.’  I wanted to be embraced by the spirits I felt and ‘taken away…’

I have never lived on that homestead, yet I am of that homestead.  When I think of it, it is with quiet reverence, and deep respect.  When I think of it ‘being developed,’ it saddens me…. However, I am grateful that neither Johannes nor John will ever have to witness the ‘progress’ on the property they both loved so much.  That house may not have been much of anything, but I would give all I have for just 1 chicken dinner with those folks of yesterday….

So, it is with this adaptation of an Iris Dement song, “Our Town,” I say ‘goodnight…’

“And ya know the sun’s setting fast
And just like they say, nothing good ever lasts.
Go on now, and kiss it goodbye
But hold on to your lover, ‘cause your heart’s bound to die…
Go on now and say goodbye, to our land…to our land.
Can’t you see the sun’s setting down on our land, on our land
…Goodnight.

Up the tracks, in the small little town
In a house next to Homer’s, is where I was first laid down
In the Whitehouse Inn, I had a few beers,
It’s been fifty years and I’m still here.
Its here I learned to swim and I had my first kiss
I’ve walked up Providence Street in the cool morning mist.
Over there is where I kept my first car
I loved that old Packard, and it carried me far.

I’ve lived virtually everywhere
Yet belonging nowhere.
And forever I’ve been drawn to this small, little town
To where I was first laid down.
John and Johannes are asleep over there
Across from the homestead they worked with care.
I think about them about every day
But I got to cry when I think what they’d say.
If they could see the sun setting fast on their land…

Now I sit on the porch and watch the lightening bugs fly
But I can’t see too good, I got tears in my eyes
I’m leaving tomorrow but I don’t want to go,
I love you my land, you’ll always live in my soul.
But I can see the sun setting’ fast
And just like they say, nothing good ever lasts…

Go on, I got to kiss you goodbye
But I’ll hold on to my lover ‘cause my heart’s ‘bout to die
Go on now and say goodbye to our land, …to our land
I can see the sun’s gone down on our land, on our land
Goodnight….goodnight…

Bobby Holliker
July 2001

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Flying, and Life…

One of the things I learned about flying is, there is really nothing “tough” about it – when you break it down.  I think I can make my point here by using a typical T-38 “contact” mission (contact missions encompass general flying and aerobatics.)  So, off we go…

Engine start: Once you’re strapped in and your nest is made, you look around the aircraft to ensure it’s clear of obstacles.  Not hard at all, is it?  Then you give your Crew Chief the signal for air pressure needed to start an engine.  That signal is given by taking your right fist and driving it into your open left hand.  Pretty tough, ain’t it.  When he acknowledges you have ‘air,’ you hold up 2 fingers on your right hand, and rotate them in a circular motion, signifying you are starting your right engine.

When he acknowledges your start signal, watch the right engine RPM gauge.  At 12 – 14% RPM, hit the Start button and bring the right throttle to Idle.  The engine should light off right away.  Simple, huh?  Then you start the left motor, and you’re on your way.

For the takeoff, all you do is line up on the runway and when you’re cleared for takeoff it all begins.  First you release your brakes and ensure you are rolling straight.  Then you advance the throttles into Afterburner (AB), and check your engine Nozzle indicators for indication of 2 good (AB) lights.

The next concern is a “Min Accel Check Speed” at a thousand feet to see if your aircraft is within performance limits.  Was never a problem for me.  (I always felt if I had 2 good Burners, I was going anyway.)   At 125 knots you begin to bring ‘back pressure’ on the stick to rotate for takeoff, and become airborne at 155 knots.  Nothing to it.

Once you check that you are indeed flying, you raise the Gear and retract the Flaps.  Then as you cross the departure end, you pull the throttles out of burner at 275 knots or so, so as to stabilize at 300 knots for the climb.  That’s all there is to it.

None of those tasks is, in and of itself, tough.  But together, they can be challenging.

Life is kinda like this also.  Nothing I have done if Life is tough by itself.  It’s when it all comes together  that I struggle upon occasion.  To get through my tough times, I have to remind myself to take it “one day at a time.”  Kinda like breaking down the tasks of a T-38 takeoff… nothing to it!  LOL!

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Two Paths in the Air Force…

When I was on Active Duty I saw two distinct career paths for pilots.  The first was to progress by kissing the Boss’s ass and playing golf.  The second was to not lie to the Boss and being very good at what you do.

I never played golf very well at all….

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Swiss Army Knives, and Crash Axes

About a year or two after 9/11 I had my little bitty Swiss Army knife confiscated by the TSA at Security one morning…

Now to put this in perspective, by FAA regulation, we carry a crash ax in the cockpit… Yep, in every one of them!

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Little bitty Swiss Army knife – Crash ax?

Morons…

 

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Confiscated Nail Clippers

We were standing around in First Class one day, just killing time before boarding, when a Sky Marshall came on board – “on fire!”   He was livid….

Seems that when he came through Security, with all his proper Creds in order, the TSA puke confiscated his nail clippers!  He inquired about it and was told that ‘nail clippers’ were on the Forbidden List.

Thank Gawd that .40 cals for Sky Marshallers weren’t…

Morons!

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Lying

One of the things Dear Ole Dad NEVER tolerated was lying.  He (literally) beat this into us from Day 1.  I grew up with more of a fear that Dear Ole Dad would think I was lying to him, than actually lying to him!  He considered a thief as one of the most despicable forms of human life; and a ‘liar’ below those pukes.  You just didn’t lie to dear Ole Dad…

I also hold to his view here.  Liars – I have no use for liars.  This is why I have so many problems with politicians today.  Not only do we see so many liars in our politicians, their lies are so obvious, and blatant!  And our society just seems to accept them!  Baffling!

Early on in life I learned that if I lie to someone I create a problem for myself – I have to remember the lie.  And the more lies I tell, the more problems I create for myself.  On the other hand, if I tell the truth – and the other guy ‘has a problem’ with what I have to say, that’s his problem, not mine.

I was called in to the DO’s office – the Director of Operations – to discuss my future after my change of command ceremony on 30 November 1987.  I had submitted my ‘retirement papers’ and they wanted to give the squadron to someone who was ‘still in the game.’  This was quite normal at the time.

During the conversation he told me that since all I seemed to like to do was fly, that was all they were going to have me doing for my last 6 months or so.  “Why didn’t you tell this to me a year ago?” I thought to myself!  Then he went on to make a couple “insinuations” that I wasn’t to pleased with.  Having declared my intention to retire, I didn’t feel I had anything to lose, so I cut loose!

“Well Sir,” I began, “I’ll tell you one thing – I have never lied to you.  And I have sat in your staff meetings now for 18 months or so, and have watched those other two pukes (squadron commanders) lie to you day in and day out!  And the thing that pisses me off more than anything is, I know you know it!”

“Oh crap,” I thought to myself, “he is now going to ‘eat my lunch!'”  But instead of saying anything, he just hung his head – for he knew I was speaking the truth at that time.  And I walked out of his office…

Side note:  About a month or so later his secretary called me over.  I had had a “run-in” with the assistant DO and he apparently brought it up with the DO.  She overheard the DO tell the little ‘puke,’ “Well Tom, one thing I will tell you about Bob is, he doesn’t lie to us – and we can’t say that about the other guys!”  Point made!

Tell the truth in Life…

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The Cockpit

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The Cockpit

The cockpit was my office.  It was a place where I experienced many emotions and learned many lessons.  It was a place of work and also a keeper of dreams.  It was a place of deadly serious encounters, yet there I discovered much about life.  I learned about joy and sorrow, pride and humility, fear and overcoming fear.  I saw much from that office that most people will never see.  At times it terrified me, yet I could always feel at home there.  It was my place, at that time in space, and the jet was mine for those moments.  Though it was a place where I could quickly die, the cockpit was a place where I truly lived.

                                                                                                                                              Brian Shul

(With apologies to Brian; for taking “liberties” with his piece here, to “wicker it” a bit to fit my personal thoughts on the cockpit…)

 

 

 

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Who Are the Loonies?

Years ago in America, we used to have ‘state hospitals’ for the “mentally impaired.”  These were institutions for folks who had gone “around the bend,” for “loonies,” the “mentally insane” and yes, “morons.”

In many cases the conditions in these institutions were deplorable.  So, instead of cleaning them up, “progressives” in our country successively ran a campaign to get rid of them.  And now we have these folks “out on the street.”

If you look at the recent epidemic of mass shootings in our country, you’ll find “mental illness” behind a lot of them.  Oh well; at least we aren’t labeling these fine citizens as “mentally impaired,” so as not to hurt their feelings!

I think the “morons” in this case are the progressives who drove the closing of state hospitals instead of having them cleaned up!  And of course, the morons in Congress who went along with the deal…

Maybe if we re-instituted state hospitals….

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A Foot on the Desk

Who is the dumb ass with his foot on the desk in the Oval Office?

obama-desk_s640x427Oh wait, that’s Barry… never mind.

 

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